Dear myself, once again, i DID told you!

I don't really need it. You don't, dear, it's just a simple tiny speck of dust..But not in your world, my dear. You little misundertood.. if it really had been a little speck, like pollen.. you have been the cronical allergic hardened on that damm speck.

The reason...hmm though I forgot such a stupid reason, nobody likes to see what happens if it's going to hurt..it's obvious. So..why trust everything's alright when it is not? On this day, I see clearly...I could had choosen another person, i didn't.

Dear myself, once again, i DID told you!
It wasn't the best way but you, the recklesst one, you fell over THAT. I won't call it by his/her name(to confuse them) right now, it is it.
It...so many time spent feeding lies...Believin' it's words, you're such a fool. You bild your hope onto fallacies wich did only deceived you just to get what it wanted, I think so...what a shame i'm not sure at all.

Well, I asked it a few months ago but I had no clearly answer...I would swear it didn't *that horrible word you hate the most..* ..


In this moment, whatever was said or done is now forgotten...at least in theory. Can you imagine? Great! It is not. Fuck. If you plus some *not able to under-eighteen* conversations we had since we began to talk to each other again, you can swear you're crawling stupidly....Take the advice your conscience is shouting to you:

Forget every trace of the past, live now but don't let "it" influde on it. And at least but not less important, don't *the hated word again..* or i will kill you...kill us.